Schizophrenic moment...

I had a schizophrenic moment last evening and a voice came to me saying...'what am I attempting to prove with all this?' I suspect it is my search for 'truth' that drives me and also I believe sincerely in a single state where all things are possible - the universe reflecting that creative reality. I was in recovery and needed healing. I needed to look at the world again without its poison that I had allowed to discolor my vision of it. I also found that I don't need to have enemies any longer and to just leave those whom I disagree with alone. I see this constant unified state in consciousness as a way to live. It is being free of the bondage of false emotions which are really centered in the ego. Love is the only true state and all else are extensions of an insecure self. I wish to get to that stage to physically reflect this in my art and live it as a person. How does one get 'there'? I think just by being natural and true to oneself. It is the path to happiness.As children most people experience this state naturally unfettered. It is why I love being around the innocence of them. It is why I believe my art started to resemble that of a child's. I questioned my understanding of faith and religion which needed to expand and grow and which inhibited my progress and growth. So here are some of the reasons why I embarked on this journey. I lived my life as an eclectic mix of people and things and wished to connect it all to something..peace to you on your path to happiness. If you are struggling with issues of your orientation in particular, know you have the full support of me as it can be something that can make you feel quite alone in its search to trying to understand it...peace and love...