Relief at last...

Things have really picked up again with sales and last year seems like a dream away. It was difficult and I don't know how I was able to survive. It was with the help of some very good friends and the tenacity to keep going even at the most bleakest times.Many of them bought my paintings even when my art was atrocious - my creativity really waned and I was so very negative. I was down to selling $5.oo pieces although my art is relatively inexpensive anyway. The play is back on track now and I am in a better position to get funding to produce it. It is a good play and I try not to over romanticize what the reality of what our situation is. During last year, I failed at drinking twice but am back on track. Finally things appear to be working out for me. These blog entries saved my sanity as I staggered to keep my imagination and creativity going. I believe I have resolved my dilemma as an artist who hates doing commercial art vs a creative one. The reality is I have to make a living and will do what i have to do in order to make the sales but I will also continue to develop my personal style which is more freeing and fulfilling. All artists have two styles in which they work - one that pays the bills and the other that is closer to the soul. I shall have to combine the two if I am to stay on the dock. I have managed to integrate myself into a community of good positive people and there is much going on. It is a long way from whence I came, from a recluse and alcoholic with little desire or care. My life has purpose and I believe I have found mine. This is all that I have been trying to say and wished to achieve. I am back into the land of the living. May God be with you all, however ones perceives this...Light and love....