Healing heart...

The process of self healing is more than the physical. Of course my body and health needs repairing after the abuse of so many years of drinking and smoking. What I felt I needed though is for the heart to heal. It is truly where self love comes in the most. One really can't love another properly unless you love and accept yourself unconditionally- the heart may carry emotional injuries that stop this from happening. This is a culture that may leave one with a heart broken for many reasons.Everything I say is quite simple and self evident. Finding 'voice' is just being honest with how you speak and to love yourself means just that. The feeling of love you may have for another is the same emotion you should have for yourself. I am just learning all this. Actually both are selfless acts. Anyway, I am now beginning to heal fully from within. The great Romantics felt love through a yearning. It always seems so unfulfilled. Loving yourself fills those spaces. It is the healthier road to recovery. This may all come with age but it is good to accept that some things will never change. Personally, I have reached the conclusion that there are those who I just don't have anything in common with. It happens allot in this place and it is good to leave it just like that. On a different note, I am physically exhausted. I believe I will have to take a different tact in how I am working with my art. For the past two and a half years with six months off for my alcohol recovery program, I went through a great creative spurt painting over three thousand pieces - I start form scratch every day. It does take energy to do what I do and really these blog entries have also mentally exhausted me. This last year was particularity trying both physically and financially. I may start selling prints and work on one major painting a day. I feel I would like to spend more time on images. It is a season to change.. ..peace and love...