Merging the mind...

It always seems to me that when the focus is on my writing, I tend to neglect my visuals and vice verse. I have attempted to merge the two in these entries but for the most part it was more about how I thought about a visual reality and an integration with a personal philosophy relating to a greater universe. My writing is more classical in theme and I really am a modern visual artist. I wished to give more form to my art while liberating my 'voice' in writing. Both required the opposite of each other but loaned certain attributes. I believe I have been successful in formulating a common philosophy where by synthesizing both. It is a point of departure for true creative development and growth. There needed to be a deconstruction mind, body and spirit to allow for this liberation. My writing was very 'Catholic' with a very fixed understanding of 'order' although I have always attempted to break those rules as often as I could. My visuals adopted a trajectory of the great Modernists with an examination of line and form in space. There is still much to understand with regards to this incorporating color as energy and light. I find that it has been the visual arts most of all that has liberated me as a person although I feel I am a stronger writer. However, I still can't spell! I do need to re-focus again on my painting and what I put out there visually. I suspect my writing will not be as strong while I do this.I have been quite neglectful and have opted to be lazy about what I produce as a painter lately- it's easy to do palm trees and sea scenes without much thought. I hate doing pretty pictures just to make the sales. My art, like my writing requires soul but really when I let it 'sing', it does come out being more simpler than the thoughts going on in my head. They are predominately abstract in nature. I have not quite worked out why this is as yet although I have made some thoughts already about why this may be. I believe it really is seeing things in Modern terms simply through the 'eyes' of a child which strips away everything to its essence where there is a more open honesty about an inner reflection of a 'truth' - I have been drawing many 'stick' men intentionally. So we shall see if I am able to turn the tables in my visuals for the next few months. Like I said before, I am truly exhausted but not being creative in my work makes me more tired. I have to re-event myself in the process again and trust that sales may come with that risk. I can get very strange in that work when ready, like I am as a person. It comes easier when you don't think too much about it and let it happen intuitively. I guess I really am an artist and a poet finally which I have always professed at being. It is what I have only wished to be known as ever and now am...peace and love....